The Healing: A Letter to Friends

Hello!

I know it's been a while... well... a long while since my last post.  So, here I go to get back in the swing of things, give you a heads up on how my family and I are doing and to give you a time frame to expect the rest of that Poop Story :) (this weekend)  We are all doing better, taking each day one at a time.  I'm sure that you never really get over losses like this, but good friends and family do help make the days more bearable.

I started writing back to the caring individuals who reached out to me from the day and after the day of my Father's passing.  I really wanted to reach back out, but I found myself wretched with tears every time I tried.  Partly sadness because it kind of put me back in the moment of the loss and the other part... overwhelmed by the show of such love, support and warmth.  And dammit... I am already starting to cry right now, see what you guys have turned me into... a blubbering mushball :)

So knowing that right now, I am just too emotionally weak to write each wonderful one of you, my plan was to sit down and write down each and every name of everyone who came to my side via messages, email, phone calls and letters in one big heart felt letter addressed to all of you, to express my gratitude to each of you.  So as I sat, going through the correspondence I could not help but glance back over the words written and again... the outreach of love... well it touches me and makes me all mushbally again.

So let me instead address this to all of you, and you know who you are. :)

To The Healers,

Life after the pain of a great loss is a difficult one.  It is difficult to want to get up in the morning, it is difficult to want to work, it is difficult to want to go outside and enjoy the beauty of the day.  It is easy to despair, it is easy to cry and it is easy to feel alone.  It is too easy to feel that you will never be able to heal.

But I am not alone.   I am surrounded by Healers.

Many of you shared your own personal grief of losing someone dear to You.  You shared your own personal experience of pain, grief and the road forward.  You made me feel like I was not the only one in the world to hurt.  You made me understand that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and I was not alone.  Thank you for showing me that light.  Thank you for sharing your pain with me.  Thank you for making me feel like I was no longer so alone.

There are those of you who reached out with words of condolence. Even the simplest of expression "I'm sorry." was enough.  From the simple gestures all the way to the long letters of sympathy, each and every one of them made me realize how many good and wonderful people there are out there in the world that would care so much as to extend their hearts in the way that you did.  Again, you made me feel less alone.  Thank you for reaching out and showing me warmth.  Thank you for your sympathies and condolences.  Thank you for making feel like I was no longer so alone.

Then there are those immediately close to me.  My family.  During a time where we are were weakened by the blow, we all took turns shouldering one another.  I thank my Mother and Brother for being strong at the times that I had no strength in me.  I thank Rasmus for being amazing and taking care of me and loving me so unconditonally.  With them by my side, I know in all certainty I am not alone.  Thank you to them for making me feel like I was no longer alone.

Each of you have been my Healers.  Your words have been my Heart Bandages.  At a time when I was turned upside down and felt as though I had been emptied... you filled me up.  You filled me with your Support.  You filled me with you Kindness.  You filled me with your Sympathy.  You filled me with your Love.  I can not help but to feel wonderfully  overwhelmed by the outpouring of sheer warmth and kindness that has been offered to me.  How in this day and age, people with whom I have never sat down face to face and met can touch me and comfort me in such a way as all of you have.

I Thank You, each of You, from the bottom of my Love filled Heart.  Thank you, kind Healers, for helping me get through a most difficult time in my life. 

All my Love & Gratitude,

Kelly